Welp, here we are 2020…much anticipated and a whole lot unchanged. Let me first start by saying this; 2019 was filled with a lot of change, a little heartache and some great success for me, yet I still find myself searching for something.
Last year I cleaned up the last reminders of my past life as a married woman, sold the house I spent my married years in, bought my first house as a single person, had my first heartbreak post “the ring” and had some great successes at work. Man..what a year! If I had the foresight I would have bought stock in grapes..the amount of red wine I consumed was monumental. Some of you know exactly what I am talking about..the countless nights curled up on the couch binge watching Girlfriends Guide to Divorce, wearing over sized sweatpants, drunk and covered in cat hair…that for me was 2019 despite what everyone else saw as one of my “greatest years yet.”
So what am I missing? I don’t think I am searching for something tangible any longer, this I am almost positive of. When it comes to dating, I am beginning to feel a little bit like Seinfeld..I find something wrong with EVERYONE. My career is in full swing and I’m excelling, so there is that. And I have the home of my dreams and a daughter I couldn’t be more proud of. So what then? There is still this massive void that I can’t seem to fill.
I think what I am searching for is not a who, or a what but it’s much bigger..it has become a question about if it’s possible. This my friends is why I have become quiet recently. I am focusing more on self care, spending time with family and adding to my experiences bank. Stay tuned..I will always be back!
Cheers!
